22 My Frustration.
The training this afternoon was for the Knights too.
Do the usual menu and the mock fight begins.
My opponent was a young man from the Knights.
At least in this Marquis Anderson residence, the first face I see.
… Anything, it seems like one of the Knights’ youngsters is called Hope, an entertaining figure ahead.
A sharp and quick sword muscle that deserves a reputation before that.
Every time I can cross my sword, I can see that it’s getting pushed.
While I was doing that, I went too deep and on the contrary fell at the other end of the spectrum and was finally played the sword.
… really, what has happened?
My body doesn’t move as much as I think.
I know, but I can’t react.
“… that’s it! Winner, Donalty!
The decree of judgment, it sounds.
To remorse, I chewed my lips unwittingly at my impudence.
“… I heard about General Gazelle’s secret boy and was looking forward to it… but to this extent”
Like throwing up, opponent…… Donalty said.
“Don’t get me wrong. He was promoted to escort because of his close age with Gazelle’s son, and because of his role, he is only being professed by Gazelle. It’s no different that you’re a civilian, and it’s unpleasant that guys like you are trained in this Marquis Anderson house with big faces.”
That’s what I can’t say back to him leaving the arena.
Honestly, who’s the secret? There were a lot of places I wanted to scratch.
But his words pierced my chest.
… I cannot deny that I was placed in a privileged environment by my birth.
Anyway, I’ve been taught by General Gazelle, the country’s long-awaited hero, since I began to hold the sword. He had received as a matter of course what many active soldiers and knights could not receive even if they wanted.
That would be nothing but a blessing.
It was embarrassing.
I regretted it.
I may have been proud at some point.
… said he was getting stronger.
He said he became stronger and recognized from around him.
When I was trained in Marquis Anderson territory, I accepted that the attitude of everyone in the convoy who was also trained was softened.
But the reality is, maybe it wasn’t.
Simply because you could see your father promoting me behind my back.
That’s why.
Even so, we have not been able to give you a winning star in the Wang capital.
Therefore, on the contrary, you will be irritated by my presence.
… in the territory. It even seems to me that he might have been handed down not only when he softened his attitude, but when he was relative in a simulated battle.
Against the worse and worse of thoughts… but not to the wax of crying here, I put my strength into my belly.
And I endured until the training was over, that moment when it was over… I, out of the city.
At home, I didn’t want to cry.
I couldn’t cry.
I don’t want my father, my brother, or anybody else to know.
I didn’t do what I cried, why I cried.
Tiny pride, but I didn’t have the courage to hurt it any more.
The tower in the Wang Dynasty was ahead of us.
Someday, where your father brought you.
Although there were of course guard soldiers to get inside the tower, I was a trained member at home and he knew me well enough to get me inside.
Climb the long stairs and reach the top.
The view of Wang Du here is incredible.
Although there is no general opening because it was established as a watchtower in the event of an incident.
That’s why I was the only one here who could see such a beautiful sight.
When I first saw the view here, I was impressed.
But now, the scenery is also not well seen with moist eyes.
The feelings I had endured until just now overflow the moment I thought I was alone, and tears overflow as one emotion after another.
“… Ugh… Ugh!
I regretted it.
It was embarrassing.
… It was miserable.
Doesn’t that sound like a clown?
When you looked at me, everyone was looking at my father through me.
Yet I…
Negative emotions accumulating in my heart are severe and painful in my chest.
Crying doesn’t make it any lighter.
Instead, it just gets heavy.
I wanted to scream out, when I almost opened my mouth.
I heard claws and noises.
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